Another week has passed...

I would like to believe that we are having a holiday break in the dieting process... Last two weeks haven't been that great. I did not even weight last Sunday.

We may as well say that we are closed for vacation...

Not a good week.

So far, not a very good week. Too many bad decisions. However, I am not going on 'splurge' mode, which is good: it shows that at least I am in control.

I believe this will be a gain week. Not much, but gain.

Stay tuned for Sunday!!!

3rd. week.

Hello, again. 3rd. week and the losses keep coming. Down 1.6 lbs. (742 g) for a total lose of 8.4 lbs (3.81 Kg)

This week I went down the goal, and there will be some thinking about that. I know that I didn't exercise as much last week, ie I didn't take Oliver that often for a walk. I need to keep doing that, at least for as long as the weather permits. I am not going to beat myself over this. It is not the time yet to do that, but I need to make sure I understand that I am doing this to get a goal. And that goal is to near my weight to my ideal weight.

Keep tuned! It is going to get better!!!

week 3!

I went down a pound. . . I was kind of expecting to go down more, but it IS close to that time of the month, which is a plague for all females.. especially those trying to lose weight.

I kind of wish there were some kind of magical weight watchers program that deals with crazy, fat, bipolar people. Cause if there were WW: Bipolar edition, you can bet my crazy brain would sign up in a heartbeat. It is tough to lose weight for ANYONE, and I know it is... but doing so with a crazy brain seems to make it just a bit more... suckass.

If I'm having a day with an even, steady keel... it is an easy eating day. Meaning, I have NO problem making really good choices and staying with the program. I'll even go for a walk or a romp in the park with The Chewkie.

If I'm having a low day, I'm tired and cranky and I just want to eat a TON of comfort food... lifestyle change be damned to hell.

If I'm having a high (or manic) day, it can go either way. . . But nine times out of ten my mania makes me snappish and angry and... lifestyle be double damned to hell.

I'd like to say that I'm bipolar controlled.. but there are just some days when I think no amount of medication in the world can tame my brain. Those days are not frequent, but pop up more before (PMS--UGH!) and when "My Aunt From Germany" is visiting.

I do talk all about this with my pdoc, but we have made the decision not to add any medication, because what is left to add has crappy side effects (weight gain, among worse things). So, I struggle on.

Maybe I should start a support group: Bipolar Fatties Unite!

i forgot!

I had to get up REALLY early yesterday and I only had 90 minutes of sleep (I don't do well with sleeping when I know I have to wake up early.) so I forgot to weigh myself.

I just did and I lost 2.6 pounds!

This makes me feel good after last week where I did not lose. I saw my doctor and she changed some medication because one she put me on (actos) actually causes weight gain! What the hell kind of type 2 diabetes drug is that? Type 2s are fat so lets give them a pill that KIND of helps a LITTLE bit in controlling blood sugar but lets make them GAIN WEIGHT while doing it! Yeah! Sounds like a great idea because then they'll need MORE drugs!

So, anyway... onwards and downwards.

Week 2

Okay world. Week two of weight loss had some highs and lows, some goods and some bads, but the main thing, the important thing, the great thing... I lost 2.3 pounds (1 Kg.), and I keep en route for the main objective. But this week also left the following learnings:

• Restaurants are sneaky bitches. You should never trust your instincts and search on their website for nutritional values before deciding what to eat.
• I am more important than food is. I am more valuable.
• Food is good... but also an addiction for me.

Yes. I have to write it and admit it. I am addicted to food. Some people will come to me and tell me that it is not bad, every once in a while, to have something bad to eat. And, generally speaking that is true. But in my case, in my circumstances (my ability to exercise is very limited at the time), this can lead to disaster.

Yes, there were a couple of bad moments during this week.

There were also good ones.

The main fact is that I was save it.

Total weight loss so far: 6.8 lbs (3.1 Kgs)

work in progress.. work in progress..

have i mentioned that i am a work in progress?

yeah.

i am.

this whole lifestyle change thing is as well.

i need to move more, eat less and blog when hungry.

that is all... for now.